Thursday, December 04, 2008

2 days left and I feel awful - Stressed out

I feel awful.
I feel stress.
Totally.. stressed out.

Things are not going as I planned. As we planned.
Things are.. getting worse.
I feel like crying. I just feel like it, but I didn't.

Thanks Chucky and Sakura-chan for comforting me.

Chucky, you are right. I shouldn't stress myself too much for things that I can't control.

It's my own fault to be happy too early... haha.

This is hard.. so hard...
But I knew that having responsibilities is not an easy task.
I still am doing this because I like it and doing this makes me happy.

But my heart hurts... 2 days left and I am still unprepared.
I am getting headaches...

Neko is right. The reason I have a lot of things unprepared is not because I am doing lots of things, it's because I didn't seek help.
I didn't ask anyone to help me. I guess I was.. selfish. Is this considered as selfish too?
I don't know what to call myself.
I think I am able to do all these myself.
But instead, I am stressing out and panicking all by myself in the end.
I should've ask help from others.
I don't know who to ask help from, and I am so used in doing things on my own.
I guess I need to change in this...
Why didn't I ask help?
Do I really think I am that great that I am able to do things on my own?
Or am I afraid that no one will help me?
Or I just don't trust anyone else except myself?

Maybe.. maybe I should.. change a bit of myself..
Stop going Solo.. and get a Party/Team instead...
It's not that I can't work toegther...
When someone asked for my help, I help them.
It's just that.. when it comes to myself..
I don't seek help.. I only help others...
I don't dare to ask for help...

I think I need some guidance... :'(

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Strong =)

Lots of stuffs have been happening lately.
New problems, old matters,
But nothing can get me down. =)
Never gonna give up, as nothing is impossible.
It will be hard, but I believe I can.
I believe we can.
Don't give up, as it makes us stronger.
I am strong. Well at least I feel so XD
We can never please everyone, so don't mind it at all.
Think positive. Let the negative thoughts be history.
We aren't wrong, so don't let them think that they are right.
I'll do my best. Will you?

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I fired myself

Yeah, I 'resigned'...

I'm still not sure what to do after next Monday.

Either I get a new job, or take culinary/pastry course for my future plan.


Now busy with lots of projects, comic, cosplay, performance...

I like to do all these, but to do all these at once...

Now I know hard and tiring it is... @_@

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Teh Loli Drama

Never ending internetz loli drama lulz

I is amused

Tuesday, October 07, 2008





okay... enough sawan-ing

Why oh why it has to be on the same date??????????!!!


To prepare for this debut....... argh!!!!

=_=''' @work

Tired with so many phone calls...
A huge pile of papers haven't been filed in yet...


Friday, August 08, 2008

err... seriously?

Is he serious this time?? @_@

I mean like... Seriously???


Lolz... wtf hahahaha I find it funny sorry.... *rofl*

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Randomness + GG-ness


Haha... omg so many things to do... so many things to think of...
My head's gonna blow up...!

GG-ness!! GG!! GG!!!!!! Aaahhhhhhh!!!!

I know.. this post is random... and is wasting your time to read it... lol

Friday, May 02, 2008


My friend,
I am trying to help you.
I am trying to save you.


Only you yourself can really save yourself.

I know everyone makes mistakes,
and even though we want to avoid from making mistakes or gets into trouble,
I know it's not easy.
We ended up doing the mistake and gets into the middle of the trouble.

There are still a lot of things you don't know, or don't understand.
No matter how much you say you do.

I just hope you won't make a very very big mistake.
And also hope you will end this stupidity of yours soon.

Because I care,
Because I'm your friend.

Friday, April 25, 2008

And so....

Maybe I will update this blog with weird posts and images.

Something like Mudkips.

Or like my previous entries below.

I like to post random images. But I'm worried if I post at my other blog, it might scare people away lol.

So might as well I post here instead :P

Miku. She is still my favourite. <3

Friday, March 14, 2008

Puddings and Pancakes

Title not related.

I think.


Been stressed these few days.

I think I should...

Breath in...

... Breath out

I need to calm down and relax.

And tell myself that everything will be fine.

Life's like this.
I can't be happy all the time.

Ini hanyalah dugaan yang harusku lalui...

I still have alot of things to do.

I have responsibilities.

I'll stay strong =)

Thank you to those who cared about me, and helped me get over my problem.

I love you all =)

I love you lou gong ^^

In return,


I learned my lesson... ;_; no pinch pinch

Wednesday, March 12, 2008


I love pikachu

But why?



Even mudkip don't liek me ):

Wednesday, February 27, 2008


Recently, I have this feeling like some people are beginning to hate me, talk bad or gossiping behind my back.

Is it true? Or am I thinking too much?


I hope it's just a stupid thought of mine... >_<

Suddenly feel like singing this song:

All day
Staring at the ceiling Making
friends with shadows on my wall

All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
I don't know why

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be Me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
I've lost my mind

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

Unwell - Rob Thomas

Monday, January 21, 2008

My 1st DnD session + Voice actress?

So... I decided to try DnD - Dungeons & Dragons.
And I love it. No regrets at all.

Our 1st session was on the 19th January 2008(Saturday).
It's suppose to start on 1pm, but because we had a RaveJoint gathering at Ssam Station for lunch earlier we ended up late and started around 2pm instead. Sorry KC :P

We spent 4 hours just to build our character sheets.
And of course, I chose my favourite class, the one who can heal.
I chose Cleric over Druid, because I think that suits me better. Haha.

Meet Chloe Althea Purdenius:


Robby call her Cleron though. And he insists that Cleron should be Chloe's nickname.

Check out my latest Deviantart journal post. He drew some very cute fan art of Cler.. I mean Chloe. :3

IRTeA's DeviantArt

It was crazy. Chaotic. Totally.
But it was fun. I laughed too much it hurts my jaw. Lol.

I can't wait for the next session. :)


20th January 2008 (Sunday)

Massy asked me if I can do some voice acting the day before.
She told me that I can get RM50 for doing that.
Of course I 1st ask her what kind of voice acting they need.
Since it's not p**n related, of course I want to.
RM50!! Who don't want money?? XD

It was fun!! I'm so glad I agree on doing this.
Now I feel like becoming a guest DJ too.
Of course, the one I did was recording, while the guest DJ needs you to say it 'live'.
But still, I can get money from it. So why not just try it out? :)

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Happy New Year 2008!

Yah, that's right.
Now baru wishing everyone Happy New Year 2008!!


The CSPians!

And I got my new dress :3
It's expensive but I did not regret buying it.
It's gorgeous!

And if I'm not wrong, it's actually a replica of this dress:


Will wear this for CNY too!
Alot people said it suits CNY! XD