Friday, July 30, 2010

Guro Hatsune Miku & The Rolling Girl

I'm trying to find more Hatsune Miku-related guro illustrations.
Miku & guro stuffs is love ♥


"No problem." The words she muttered were lost.....

Friday, July 23, 2010

I tried

How can I continue believing..?
If all words had been said before
And all things had been done

I'm sorry...
I just... can't.
For now.
Not yet.

Everything look so negative to me
I can't even see the bright lights on a sunny day...

There's just too much of negativity inside of me...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

To be happy or sad? I'm sorry...

I changed the layout of the blog,
since Blogger upgraded their layout and template designs,
might as well give this blog a new look.

Chose this design cos...
I feel it just suits my mood.
The raindrops looks like teardrops to me, somehow...


I'm sorry, seems that I'm quite active in here these few days.
Should you be happy or sad?
Happy cos I'm back at home, sharing my feelings with you.
Sad cos I'm not actually feeling happy.
I never abandoned you, you know that right.
I should visit here more often,
just spend time here talking to you.

Uh yeah, people might think I'm crazy for this.
Who am I talking to?
My blog, of course.
Before this, when I was still in high school,
I usually write stuffs on papers and books.
Also talking like these, to myself, as most people call it.
Maybe I am talking to myself.
Still, issit wrong to do so?

I don't know,
I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling right now.
I don't think I'm sad, I don't think I'm happy.
Just somewhat emotional.
But I shed tears.
I need to.
I need to shed some tears.
Like how I always did,
all by myself, in my room...

I'm not emo okay. =(
I'm fine.

I need to listen all these songs and draw some stuff.

This reminds me... Maybe I should dig up and read back my old stuffs...

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Currently listening to a few songs.
Loving all these melancholic songs...
Kinda makes me emotional,
but really feel peaceful and calm while listening to these musics...
Especially listening at 2am in the morning... Haha.

Really need to buy a headphone for myself,
so I can enjoy these musics anytime, anywhere...
When I'm out to the city by myself,
at least I have these musics accompanying me...

I'm not alone...
The music is with me.


Friday, July 09, 2010

Come on come on

I can't wait for my cafe to open.
I want to fully devote myself to it.
Let me be busy, give me something to do.
I don't wanna stay at home 24/7 anymore.
Do the same old thing every single week.
I'm so tired of it.

But before my cafe opens, I'll do something about it too.
And I'm gonna start it.. right... now...

I wanna go back...
To the times when I was alone...
I prefer myself to be alone...
Let me be alone...

Tuesday, June 08, 2010


Assholes will always be assholes.


Thursday, March 25, 2010


If you hate these kind of stuffs, this is a warning to you.
I am now writing an EMO blog post.
GTFO if you know you will only complain about it after finished reading.

DO NOT tell me what I can or cannot do here...

Right now I wanna be emo. Let me be.

Cos this is my home,
the place I let my feelings out.
At least I am not posting all these out in forums or Facebook or Plurk or Twitter etc.



There are just some times where I'll feel very moody, down and emotional.
I knew that I am a very emotional person since primary school.
And you really, really can't tell me that I can't be this way.

I'm not bothering any of you now, okay?
So just let me express my feelings in my personal blog.

I've been very moody since last week.
And I cried for a few nights.
Could be cos of PMS, but I dunno...

I'm still not quite used in living the life I'm having now...

Thinking back how much things that I had lost...

Saddens me; so much.

Been shedding so much tears...

I miss...

I miss the good old days...

I really, really, really...
Never knew I would lost so many things just cos of 1 decision....

I never knew that...
I miss my friends...
I miss...
I'm sad...

A lot people say I'm a tough girl.

I'm not, really...

I'm really... weak and fragile...

I actually am a negative person.
I always think negative more than positive.


But it's balanced right... Life...
I always believe that...
If I'm feeling down, something good that's gonna make me happy will happen.
And whenever I'm feeling super happy, I'm always afraid that something bad gonna happen next...

I always thought that way... Always...


I'll be fine... Not now...
But I know that I'll be fine...
I'll be...

Because every hello ends with a goodbye...

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

New Game ++


Was out whole day on Sunday last week,
together with 2 of my friends...
It was a crazy fun day.
Nothing were really planned actually,
except the early morning part,
where we had planned to go to Gaya Street.
After that, we went to a lot of different places.

No destination...

And so I wanna share something that I came up with that day.
It's about the title of this blog post...

New Game++

A metaphor of 'Life'.

You know after you finished playing some kind of RPG,
there's a New Game++ on the title screen after the cutscenes and credits?

I am currently playing that New Game++

You played the game before.
You know how it goes.
You know what's gonna happen,
cos you've played it before.

You've been through all those situations before.

But still you'll reach a certain point,
that will lead you to other situations and endings.

You know, multiple endings.

Good ending, bad ending.
Best ending, worse ending.

Special ending?

Real World - The best game ever.

No save points.

You can't pause.

You can't restart.

I don't know what kind of ending I will get this time.

Whatever ending I'm gonna get,
I'll be replaying this game over and over again...

Until I'm dead I guess. Maybe. I don't know.

Hurm. Hm. Yeah.


Currently listening to Yuna and Zee Avi's songs ;)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

I'm sorry

I'm sorry...