WARNING: EMO POST AHEAD

If you hate these kind of stuffs, this is a warning to you.
I am now writing an EMO blog post.
GTFO if you know you will only complain about it after finished reading.

DO NOT tell me what I can or cannot do here...

Right now I wanna be emo. Let me be.

Cos this is my home,
the place I let my feelings out.
At least I am not posting all these out in forums or Facebook or Plurk or Twitter etc.

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There are just some times where I'll feel very moody, down and emotional.
I knew that I am a very emotional person since primary school.
And you really, really can't tell me that I can't be this way.

I'm not bothering any of you now, okay?
So just let me express my feelings in my personal blog.

I've been very moody since last week.
And I cried for a few nights.
Could be cos of PMS, but I dunno...

I'm still not quite used in living the life I'm having now...

Thinking back how much things that I had lost...

Saddens me; so much.

Been shedding so much tears...

I miss...

I miss the good old days...

I really, really, really...
Never knew I would lost so many things just cos of 1 decision....

I never knew that...
I miss my friends...
I miss...
I'm sad...

A lot people say I'm a tough girl.

I'm not, really...

I'm really... weak and fragile...

I actually am a negative person.
I always think negative more than positive.

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But it's balanced right... Life...
I always believe that...
If I'm feeling down, something good that's gonna make me happy will happen.
And whenever I'm feeling super happy, I'm always afraid that something bad gonna happen next...

I always thought that way... Always...

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I'll be fine... Not now...
But I know that I'll be fine...
I'll be...




Because every hello ends with a goodbye...

New Game ++

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Was out whole day on Sunday last week,
together with 2 of my friends...
It was a crazy fun day.
Nothing were really planned actually,
except the early morning part,
where we had planned to go to Gaya Street.
After that, we went to a lot of different places.

No destination...

And so I wanna share something that I came up with that day.
It's about the title of this blog post...

New Game++

A metaphor of 'Life'.

You know after you finished playing some kind of RPG,
there's a New Game++ on the title screen after the cutscenes and credits?

I am currently playing that New Game++

You played the game before.
You know how it goes.
You know what's gonna happen,
cos you've played it before.

You've been through all those situations before.

But still you'll reach a certain point,
that will lead you to other situations and endings.

You know, multiple endings.

Good ending, bad ending.
Best ending, worse ending.

Special ending?

Real World - The best game ever.

No save points.

You can't pause.

You can't restart.

I don't know what kind of ending I will get this time.

Whatever ending I'm gonna get,
I'll be replaying this game over and over again...

Until I'm dead I guess. Maybe. I don't know.






Hurm. Hm. Yeah.

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