2008/2009

I wonder.
What will happen in this year, 2009?
Of course, we can't read our future.
But I'm just curious...

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Year 2008.
So many things happened.

I know some people lost their trust on me already.
Haha.
I do feel hurt.
They brought up issues of long time ago which is not related to current discussion.
Really, our discussion is not related at all.
Why bring up that matter..?

Sometimes, I feel that I am too young for this.
Not enough experience, not enough knowledge.
That is why people look down on me.
That is why people don't trust me.
I do, feel hurt.

I don't hate them.
Because I understand their situation.
But...
Do they know how I feel?
How I am trying my best, to make the best out of it?
Yes, I am just a kid to you.
An immature kid, with little experience and knowledge.
But do you see that I am learning?
I am learning every single day.
You may think I am wasting my time, playing everyday.
Jobless, sits in front of the computer every single day.
Internet, I do put it in good use.
You, you know a lot of things in your field.
While I, I also have more knowledge in my field.
I don't want people to look down on me.
I don't..

People changes.
Yeah...
A friend, changed.
Money, is important.
But that doesn't mean you have to be like this.
So you prefer to have money than friends?
Lies. Too many lies.
Trust people no more.
I don't hate any of you.
It's just that, a friend,
A friend who used to be one of us,
so close with us,
suddenly became someone we don't know.
Who are you..?

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You smile and laugh with everyone.
But your eyes.
That look, in your eyes.
Looks fake.
Sorry, but that pair of eyes of yours...
Doesn't have the sincerity.

You became better and better in lying.
But you can't fool me.
You can't fool us.
No more.