IRTeA in PuddingLand

Guro Hatsune Miku & The Rolling Girl

2010-07-30T01:07:00.008+08:00

I'm trying to find more Hatsune Miku-related guro illustrations.
Miku & guro stuffs is love ♥

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"No problem." The words she muttered were lost.....

I tried

2010-07-23T01:37:00.002+08:00

How can I continue believing..?
If all words had been said before
And all things had been done

I'm sorry...
I just... can't.
For now.
Not yet.

Everything look so negative to me
I can't even see the bright lights on a sunny day...

There's just too much of negativity inside of me...

To be happy or sad? I'm sorry...

2010-07-14T01:09:00.003+08:00

I changed the layout of the blog,
since Blogger upgraded their layout and template designs,
might as well give this blog a new look.

Chose this design cos...
I feel it just suits my mood.
The raindrops looks like teardrops to me, somehow...

*****

I'm sorry, seems that I'm quite active in here these few days.
Should you be happy or sad?
Happy cos I'm back at home, sharing my feelings with you.
Sad cos I'm not actually feeling happy.
I never abandoned you, you know that right.
I should visit here more often,
just spend time here talking to you.

Uh yeah, people might think I'm crazy for this.
Who am I talking to?
My blog, of course.
Before this, when I was still in high school,
I usually write stuffs on papers and books.
Also talking like these, to myself, as most people call it.
...
Maybe I am talking to myself.
Still, issit wrong to do so?

I don't know,
I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling right now.
I don't think I'm sad, I don't think I'm happy.
Just somewhat emotional.
But I shed tears.
I need to.
I need to shed some tears.
Like how I always did,
all by myself, in my room...

I'm not emo okay. =(
I'm fine.

I need to listen all these songs and draw some stuff.

This reminds me... Maybe I should dig up and read back my old stuffs...

Music

2010-07-13T01:47:00.005+08:00

Currently listening to a few songs.
Loving all these melancholic songs...
Kinda makes me emotional,
but really feel peaceful and calm while listening to these musics...
Especially listening at 2am in the morning... Haha.

Really need to buy a headphone for myself,
so I can enjoy these musics anytime, anywhere...
When I'm out to the city by myself,
at least I have these musics accompanying me...

I'm not alone...
The music is with me.

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Come on come on

2010-07-09T00:47:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for my cafe to open.
I want to fully devote myself to it.
Let me be busy, give me something to do.
I don't wanna stay at home 24/7 anymore.
Do the same old thing every single week.
I'm so tired of it.

But before my cafe opens, I'll do something about it too.
And I'm gonna start it.. right... now...

I wanna go back...
To the times when I was alone...
I prefer myself to be alone...
Let me be alone...

A-holes

2010-06-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

Assholes will always be assholes.

Heh.

WARNING: EMO POST AHEAD

2010-03-25T01:08:00.004+08:00

If you hate these kind of stuffs, this is a warning to you.
I am now writing an EMO blog post.
GTFO if you know you will only complain about it after finished reading.

DO NOT tell me what I can or cannot do here...

Right now I wanna be emo. Let me be.

Cos this is my home,
the place I let my feelings out.
At least I am not posting all these out in forums or Facebook or Plurk or Twitter etc.

=_=

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There are just some times where I'll feel very moody, down and emotional.
I knew that I am a very emotional person since primary school.
And you really, really can't tell me that I can't be this way.

I'm not bothering any of you now, okay?
So just let me express my feelings in my personal blog.

I've been very moody since last week.
And I cried for a few nights.
Could be cos of PMS, but I dunno...

I'm still not quite used in living the life I'm having now...

Thinking back how much things that I had lost...

Saddens me; so much.

Been shedding so much tears...

I miss...

I miss the good old days...

I really, really, really...
Never knew I would lost so many things just cos of 1 decision....

I never knew that...
I miss my friends...
I miss...
I'm sad...

A lot people say I'm a tough girl.

I'm not, really...

I'm really... weak and fragile...

I actually am a negative person.
I always think negative more than positive.

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But it's balanced right... Life...
I always believe that...
If I'm feeling down, something good that's gonna make me happy will happen.
And whenever I'm feeling super happy, I'm always afraid that something bad gonna happen next...

I always thought that way... Always...

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I'll be fine... Not now...
But I know that I'll be fine...
I'll be...

Because every hello ends with a goodbye...

New Game ++

2010-03-23T01:51:00.003+08:00

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Was out whole day on Sunday last week,
together with 2 of my friends...
It was a crazy fun day.
Nothing were really planned actually,
except the early morning part,
where we had planned to go to Gaya Street.
After that, we went to a lot of different places.

No destination...

And so I wanna share something that I came up with that day.
It's about the title of this blog post...

New Game++

A metaphor of 'Life'.

You know after you finished playing some kind of RPG,
there's a New Game++ on the title screen after the cutscenes and credits?

I am currently playing that New Game++

You played the game before.
You know how it goes.
You know what's gonna happen,
cos you've played it before.

You've been through all those situations before.

But still you'll reach a certain point,
that will lead you to other situations and endings.

You know, multiple endings.

Good ending, bad ending.
Best ending, worse ending.

Special ending?

Real World - The best game ever.

No save points.

You can't pause.

You can't restart.

I don't know what kind of ending I will get this time.

Whatever ending I'm gonna get,
I'll be replaying this game over and over again...

Until I'm dead I guess. Maybe. I don't know.

Hurm. Hm. Yeah.

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Currently listening to Yuna and Zee Avi's songs ;)

I'm sorry

2010-02-23T16:26:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry...

It's not a small matter

2009-10-12T02:18:00.002+08:00

There are some stuffs that one should not treat it as a small matter,
especially if you are not one of the people who went through all those stuffs...

Because you were not there,
you don't know everything,
you don't know what really happened...

To us, it is not a small matter at all.
Even if the other party might tell you it's just a small matter,
a 'misunderstanding'.

I know how to differentiate 'misunderstanding' and what's not.
What happened back then was definitely NOT a misunderstanding.
How much sweat and tears I shed back then.
How hurt I was, how painful it was...
The tears I shed because of those people are no lies,
No lies at all.
It's not a small matter that I can forgive so easily.
How serious it was? Very.
Like how you felt when your friends backstabbed you, betrayed you...

I don't know what they said to everyone out there...
But I will no longer trust them.
Bad stuffs about me might continue to spread...
I can't really do anything about it.
Backstab, backstab, backstab...
I've gotten used to it.

In the end it really depends on the people who hears them whether they believe the story told by one-side only or not.

Never trust anyone 100%.
Listen to both sides, but both sides might be exaggerating too.
You will never know the real truth.
So it's only up to you..
To decide on what you should think and do about it.

But really.. It's not a small matter.
It's huge matter to me that it became the biggest lesson of my life.
A lesson that teaches me to view the people and the world differently.

People.. change.
One who were friends before but not anymore...

I still feel like crying, thinking back.

But.. Sorry, things will never be the same again.
I will never forgive and forget what has happened back then...

Never......

Behind those eyes...

2009-07-08T02:50:00.003+08:00

Are the true feelings of a person.

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Now, a continuation from the previous blog post...

This time it's not something negative,
It's a positive one. =]
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So it's hard to trust someone cos of all the lies...

But even with all the lies...
No matter how perfect the lies are...

They can't fool you one thing..

Feelings.

Yup, nothing more than feelings...

Look into their eyes.

You can feel the warmth in those pair of eyes.

Those feelings are true.

Words alone will not justify their true feelings.

The look in their eyes, accompanied by their true natural smile...

.. Full of truth, feelings, emotion, warmth...

Love.

=]

That is the real truth.

The Truth is...

2009-06-27T02:20:00.002+08:00

Ugly.

That's right.

The TRUTH is UGLY.

So do you still want to know the Truth?

Even the most honest person in the world tells lies.

Because no one speaks the Truth for eternity.

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So how do we keep on living with all the lies?

Live with the lies.

Will that help?

Will that makes us happy?

People lie to make us happy.

Should we be happy about it?

Lie to a Liar.

That's what will happen.

That's what's happening now.

Right now, in this world.

Our lives full of lies.

We lie to each other.

People say it's for our own good.

Is it true?

Is it really good for us?

I guess so.

Maybe.

...

Humans can't live without lies.

It's our nature.

We have to lie.

They have to lie.

You have to lie.

Don't know how to trust people anymore?

Don't trust.

Never trust.

There's no such thing as 'Truth'.

Lie to them, because they are lying to you.

Smartass

2009-04-16T00:28:00.002+08:00

I'm not an emo person.
I have a happy life.
I have lots of nice friends who loves me and take good care of me.

I'm happy everyday!! ^_^

.... NOT.

Someone is trying to be a smartass again.
After ignoring him for a few weeks/months...
I had to talk to him due to some unavoidable matter.

... AND HE IS SERIOUSLY PISSING ME OFF!!

F*CKING ASSH*LE

Seriously...
Why are you still looking for trouble?
Am I still bothering you?
It's been weeks/months since I've talked to you.
Because right now I am so not gonna talk to you or even look at you anymore.
Why are you still doing this to me?
You are not young, don't be so childish.
It's really making you look more and more stupid.

I want to slap you, Mr.SmartAss.

But my friend asked me not to.
Gah! I seriously want to, this is not NATO, FYI.

I AM ONLY WAITING FOR THE RIGHT TIME TO DO SO.

Until then, I'm also waiting for the bad karma that will fall upon you.

=)

Friends..

2009-03-26T02:01:00.003+08:00

.. like I never had before :)

I sayang you all. :3

Love my CSP family (^w^)

You all treat me so nice...

Sometimes I feel like I don't deserved to be treated so nice...

I seriously appreciate all of you - My Friends.

I will 100% pay you all back :3

Just have to wait since I can't afford anything right now... <:3

Good Evening, Haters...

2009-01-18T22:04:00.002+08:00

Good Evening, Haters..
Why so serious?

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Yes I do know I have attitude problems.
I am not your kindest/nicest/sweetest girl in your neighbourhood.
I am straight forward.

And I have no problem with that.

Because I know even though I have those problems (Aw come one, no one's perfect right? Or are you telling me you have no attitude problems, that you are perfect?),
I am sincere when it comes to friendship.
I have never, and will never, USE my own friend for my own benefit.
I DO NOT treat someone nice to gain their trust or loyalty to me.

All those are you and your B*llSh*ts.

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I am sad, actually.
Quite sad.
I know you have problems with me, I mean, a lot does. Haha.
But you can't just spread and talk bad about me to everyone,
even to my own friend that I am treating him nice because I have motive?!

What.the.hell.is.that. *facepalm.gif*

I am so pissed off.
Even though I do not trust the person who told me about this 100%.
Right now I just hope my friend still trusts me.
I may not be the best or nicest friend, but...

I don't lie to my friends... I...
I'm not a fake friend....

:-\

I believe in Karma.

White Hairs

2009-01-09T13:40:00.001+08:00

So far cubex had found 2 white hairs from me.

More and more white hairs are growing.

._.

2008/2009

2009-01-08T17:42:00.002+08:00

I wonder.
What will happen in this year, 2009?
Of course, we can't read our future.
But I'm just curious...

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Year 2008.
So many things happened.

I know some people lost their trust on me already.
Haha.
I do feel hurt.
They brought up issues of long time ago which is not related to current discussion.
Really, our discussion is not related at all.
Why bring up that matter..?

Sometimes, I feel that I am too young for this.
Not enough experience, not enough knowledge.
That is why people look down on me.
That is why people don't trust me.
I do, feel hurt.

I don't hate them.
Because I understand their situation.
But...
Do they know how I feel?
How I am trying my best, to make the best out of it?
Yes, I am just a kid to you.
An immature kid, with little experience and knowledge.
But do you see that I am learning?
I am learning every single day.
You may think I am wasting my time, playing everyday.
Jobless, sits in front of the computer every single day.
Internet, I do put it in good use.
You, you know a lot of things in your field.
While I, I also have more knowledge in my field.
I don't want people to look down on me.
I don't..

People changes.
Yeah...
A friend, changed.
Money, is important.
But that doesn't mean you have to be like this.
So you prefer to have money than friends?
Lies. Too many lies.
Trust people no more.
I don't hate any of you.
It's just that, a friend,
A friend who used to be one of us,
so close with us,
suddenly became someone we don't know.
Who are you..?

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You smile and laugh with everyone.
But your eyes.
That look, in your eyes.
Looks fake.
Sorry, but that pair of eyes of yours...
Doesn't have the sincerity.

You became better and better in lying.
But you can't fool me.
You can't fool us.
No more.

2 days left and I feel awful - Stressed out

2008-12-04T01:44:00.003+08:00

I feel awful.
I feel stress.
Totally.. stressed out.

Things are not going as I planned. As we planned.
Things are.. getting worse.
I feel like crying. I just feel like it, but I didn't.

Thanks Chucky and Sakura-chan for comforting me.

Chucky, you are right. I shouldn't stress myself too much for things that I can't control.

It's my own fault to be happy too early... haha.

This is hard.. so hard...
But I knew that having responsibilities is not an easy task.
I still am doing this because I like it and doing this makes me happy.

But my heart hurts... 2 days left and I am still unprepared.
I am getting headaches...

Neko is right. The reason I have a lot of things unprepared is not because I am doing lots of things, it's because I didn't seek help.
I didn't ask anyone to help me. I guess I was.. selfish. Is this considered as selfish too?
I don't know what to call myself.
I think I am able to do all these myself.
But instead, I am stressing out and panicking all by myself in the end.
I should've ask help from others.
But..
I don't know who to ask help from, and I am so used in doing things on my own.
I guess I need to change in this...
Why didn't I ask help?
Do I really think I am that great that I am able to do things on my own?
Or am I afraid that no one will help me?
Or I just don't trust anyone else except myself?

Maybe.. maybe I should.. change a bit of myself..
Stop going Solo.. and get a Party/Team instead...
It's not that I can't work toegther...
When someone asked for my help, I help them.
It's just that.. when it comes to myself..
I don't seek help.. I only help others...
I don't dare to ask for help...

I think I need some guidance... :'(

Strong =)

2008-11-19T02:14:00.003+08:00

Lots of stuffs have been happening lately.
New problems, old matters,
But nothing can get me down. =)
Never gonna give up, as nothing is impossible.
It will be hard, but I believe I can.
I believe we can.
Don't give up, as it makes us stronger.
I am strong. Well at least I feel so XD
We can never please everyone, so don't mind it at all.
Think positive. Let the negative thoughts be history.
We aren't wrong, so don't let them think that they are right.
I'll do my best. Will you?

I fired myself

2008-10-15T09:54:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I 'resigned'...

I'm still not sure what to do after next Monday.

Either I get a new job, or take culinary/pastry course for my future plan.

*sigh*

Now busy with lots of projects, comic, cosplay, performance...

I like to do all these, but to do all these at once...

Now I know hard and tiring it is... @_@

Teh Loli Drama

2008-10-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

Never ending internetz loli drama lulz

I is amused

RISING

2008-10-07T13:55:00.001+08:00

IT IS RISING

THE TIME IS COMING

AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

okay... enough sawan-ing

Why oh why it has to be on the same date??????????!!!

T_T

To prepare for this debut....... argh!!!!

=_=''' @work

2008-10-07T12:49:00.001+08:00

Tired with so many phone calls...
A huge pile of papers haven't been filed in yet...

urgh...

err... seriously?

2008-08-08T13:16:00.002+08:00

Is he serious this time?? @_@

I mean like... Seriously???

...

Lolz... wtf hahahaha I find it funny sorry.... *rofl*

Randomness + GG-ness

2008-08-05T16:51:00.003+08:00

GG!!!!

Haha... omg so many things to do... so many things to think of...
My head's gonna blow up...!

GG-ness!! GG!! GG!!!!!! Aaahhhhhhh!!!!

I know.. this post is random... and is wasting your time to read it... lol

Friend

2008-05-02T01:21:00.003+08:00

My friend,
I am trying to help you.
I am trying to save you.

But...

Only you yourself can really save yourself.

I know everyone makes mistakes,
and even though we want to avoid from making mistakes or gets into trouble,
I know it's not easy.
We ended up doing the mistake and gets into the middle of the trouble.

There are still a lot of things you don't know, or don't understand.
No matter how much you say you do.

I just hope you won't make a very very big mistake.
And also hope you will end this stupidity of yours soon.

Because I care,
Because I'm your friend.

And so....

2008-04-25T01:58:00.002+08:00

Maybe I will update this blog with weird posts and images.

Something like Mudkips.

Or like my previous entries below.

I like to post random images. But I'm worried if I post at my other blog, it might scare people away lol.

So might as well I post here instead :P

Miku. She is still my favourite. <3

Puddings and Pancakes

2008-03-14T01:15:00.003+08:00

Title not related.

I think.

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Been stressed these few days.

I think I should...

Breath in...

... Breath out

I need to calm down and relax.

And tell myself that everything will be fine.

Life's like this.
I can't be happy all the time.

Ini hanyalah dugaan yang harusku lalui...

I still have alot of things to do.

I have responsibilities.

I'll stay strong =)

Thank you to those who cared about me, and helped me get over my problem.

I love you all =)

I love you lou gong ^^

In return,

Horo.

I learned my lesson... ;_; no pinch pinch

\_(o_o)_/

2008-03-12T12:42:00.007+08:00

I love pikachu

But why?

D:

...

Even mudkip don't liek me ):

Unwell

2008-02-27T23:13:00.003+08:00

Recently, I have this feeling like some people are beginning to hate me, talk bad or gossiping behind my back.

Is it true? Or am I thinking too much?

:-\

I hope it's just a stupid thought of mine... >_<

Suddenly feel like singing this song:

All day
Staring at the ceiling Making
friends with shadows on my wall

All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be Me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

Unwell - Rob Thomas

My 1st DnD session + Voice actress?

2008-01-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

So... I decided to try DnD - Dungeons & Dragons.
And I love it. No regrets at all.

Our 1st session was on the 19th January 2008(Saturday).
It's suppose to start on 1pm, but because we had a RaveJoint gathering at Ssam Station for lunch earlier we ended up late and started around 2pm instead. Sorry KC :P

We spent 4 hours just to build our character sheets.
And of course, I chose my favourite class, the one who can heal.
I chose Cleric over Druid, because I think that suits me better. Haha.

Meet Chloe Althea Purdenius:

Robby call her Cleron though. And he insists that Cleron should be Chloe's nickname.

Check out my latest Deviantart journal post. He drew some very cute fan art of Cler.. I mean Chloe. :3

IRTeA's DeviantArt

It was crazy. Chaotic. Totally.
But it was fun. I laughed too much it hurts my jaw. Lol.

I can't wait for the next session. :)

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20th January 2008 (Sunday)

Massy asked me if I can do some voice acting the day before.
She told me that I can get RM50 for doing that.
Of course I 1st ask her what kind of voice acting they need.
Since it's not p**n related, of course I want to.
RM50!! Who don't want money?? XD

It was fun!! I'm so glad I agree on doing this.
Now I feel like becoming a guest DJ too.
Of course, the one I did was recording, while the guest DJ needs you to say it 'live'.
But still, I can get money from it. So why not just try it out? :)

Happy New Year 2008!

2008-01-05T21:59:00.001+08:00

Yah, that's right.
Now baru wishing everyone Happy New Year 2008!!

XD

The CSPians!

And I got my new dress :3
It's expensive but I did not regret buying it.
It's gorgeous!

And if I'm not wrong, it's actually a replica of this dress:

Haha!

Will wear this for CNY too!
Alot people said it suits CNY! XD

v(^_^)v HobbyCon Peace~

2007-12-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

I know I know...
Now baru update my blog about HobbyCon!! XD;;

Sorry for the late update... haha...

Anyway...

I'm on the newspaper. Lolz.

:)

Me happy.

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HobbyCon Day 1: -

Nervous. Excited.
Happy. Scared.
Those were how I felt before HobbyCon started.

After the chairman's speech and our dance performance,

HOBBYCON STARTS!!

People were looking around at the booths...
But the most popular booth is the comic section..
Cos they were drawing! XD
And they gave out free sketches!^^

The cosplayers were walking around...
I was shocked and happy that there were so many cosplayers!!
*Hugs all cosplayers*

Alot people were taking pictures of us.
I'm so happy because that's what I wanted!!

The Popular Hare Hare Yukai dance :D

Success!! XD

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HobbyCon Day 2: -

Most of us wore loli dresses that day.
And we even had a tea party!

Me and my dear <3

Before HobbyCon ended,
we performed a final Hare Hare Yukai dance...
I actually asked the others to join in as well,
well... It's not as much as the Japanese version...
But here ya go anyways ^^

After the dance...
HobbyCon 2007...

END

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Overall,

HobbyCon 2007 is a success!! \(^o^)/

Though it's a bit messy and not properly organized,
I am very satisfied because it's more than what I expected. :D

We still need to improve alot though,
but no worries,
I'm sure we'll be able to do that!

My personal favourite photo:

Yeah! Don't you dare mess with the cosplayers..
Especially female cosplayers + lolitas!
We got Hangmen as our bodyguard...
Mess with us and you'll regret it.

Credit to Julian.
Check out his blog :)

For more infos and pics about HobbyCon,
check out these links:

HobbyCon Official Blog

Julian@Lee Hng's Blog

Maslight/Massy's Blog

Flanegan's Blog

sr215's Blog

Acom's Blog

Sir-George's Blog

Doridori/Rumil's Blog

Hangmen's Blog

1 more week~!

2007-12-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

HobbyCon!!

I can't believe it... time flies so so fast...

1 more week to go and it's the HobbyCon...

I feel proud to be part of it.

Got my cosplay costume already.

At 1st it looks pretty weird, and thought it's a little too big.

(It does actually)

But overall, it looks beautiful!!!

I love it!! <3

1st cosplay (minus the Sailormoon one XD )

Let's go!!

2nd time, after 7 years.

2007-12-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

Tears.

2nd time when I couldn't hold my tears in 7 years,
because of accusal.

I don't care when people talk bad about me.

But I just couldn't resist accusal.

That's the worst feeling for me.

My whole body is cold and trembling. They saw that.

I couldn't control it.

It just hurt me so much.

It hurts me when someone accused me on something I didn't do.

It's a hurtful misunderstanding.

A very serious one.

I still feel like crying.

I'll try to be more mature.

But to forget what had happened, it's impossible.

I was hated, insulted and accused.

I am not going to complain.

This is the real world.

Good and bad things happens.

You can't please everybody.

But that won't gonna let me down just like that.

It's not the end of the world yet.

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Thanks CSP fellowers, you guys are really like a family to me.
I love you all.

Dear Anonymous

2007-12-01T09:32:00.000+08:00

Anonymous said...

>>u wear lolita never make up\
>>u look stupid in pink
>>u so fat n ur softtoy is dirty n smelly n ugly dont show it
>>ur bag really is not a proper lolita bag
>>u always wear pink lolita dress only...
>>n ur pink stinky dress is not maid style ok
>>ur face very ugly n u very fat
>>n ur lao gong n like to show his tummy
>>plz live in tis world with mature way
>>n u not live in a pudding land u live in a stupid land with stupid ppl
>>u have no taste at all

Hello dear anonymous:

Thanks for viewing my blog! =D
And thanks for your comments, this is the 1st time I get this kind of comments!! ^^

I don't know who you are, but it seems that you don't know much about Lolita Culture. But it's ok, it does take some time to learn. Like me, 1 year ago I was really really a noob in this Lolita Culture. But at least I had improve! ;D

I did wear make up, natural look is the best you know! =D
Heavy make up makes the skin not good and it's like 'hiding your real face'.

I look stupid in pink? Hmm... Why is that? How can the color pink make someone look stupid? Hmm... So if I wear other color then I can look clever? Waw I just know that!

I may be not thin, but I am not fat either. I don't know if you can tell the difference though. Or maybe you are too skinny like a skeleton that made you think I'm so fat? Poor you...
My softtoy is smelly and ugly and you ask me to not show it? Waw you can smell the item through images in the computer! Unfortunately I think you have a bad sense of smell and eyesight, because it isn't dirty nor smelly, and I don't think it's ugly at all! Maybe you think sh*t is cleaner, smells nicer and pretty?

Ah, my bag, yea I guess so. You're right. But no worries I got some new loli bags already. And someone told me it's good to 'Mix & Match'. But I know how to match it right, so no worries. ^^

Hm... It seems that you haven't saw my Friendster profile? I wear a lot kinds of lolita dresses already. Maybe you should go check it out. ^^

That one, my dear, is maid style sweet lolita. Make good use of the internet. It can help you alot. =)

Hm... So you think my face is very ugly and I'm very fat? 9 people says no and 1 say yes. That 1 person is you. So you lose. =)

My lou gong got cute round tummy! ^^ weeee got big round tummy means happy, healthy and wealthy you know!
There's this couple husband and wife,the wife is sooo skinny like a skeleton while the husband is fat and short and he shows tummy too! Haha!

I do live this world in a mature way, maybe you can't see it. But it's ok. I also hope you will live this world in a mature way, not flaming other people with your random comments which doesn't make any sense at all.

I like puddings. =D
And yes, I do live in a stupid land with stupid ppl. That's why I met a stupid people like you ;D

I do have taste. I can taste all the food and they taste great! =D

Thanks again, dear anonymous.

Gothic, Lolita and Punk Pro?

2007-11-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

Lolz.

What a funny thing happened in the forum.

Don't know much about Lolita culture yet trying to correct me. Haha!

And didn't even bother to finish read and re-read other people's comments.

Misunderstood what people said yet talking like a smartass.

"No offence but this and that and bla bla bla"

"Those pic are specially taken for our promotion banner for GLP party banner.so the 1 u posted is not been edited yet.so,be understanding.u might c its different after edited. And regarding the fishnet sock, is to give the impression of gothic side of that lolitas. There's many types of lolitas, so this is 1 of it. And y there's 1 "punk" standing in the middle of them....well,our theme of the gathering is GLP,gothic/PUNK/Lolitas.so,it's one of the theme.so please understanding.ppl won't get misunderstanding if the photos has been edited."

And asking me to be understanding because the photo not yet been edited??

LOL what kind of crap is that??

So the outfits are only for taking photos, and edit them, and then put them in the internet?
Not for wearing outside?

Hahahahahaha

Anyway I said 'people misunderstood Lolita with Punk fashion' is because some random people I found in Friendster saw a model of yours wearing Lolita but they said it's Punk, you mis-read it and misunderstood me. Try re-read the comments if you're English is not so good =D

"i dun find there's problem if they remain cool.may i ask u sumthing, did u ever c punk/gothic lolita smile when they take photos.sorry,no offence...."

Ya I also don't have problem with that. But... Excuse me? Punk/Gothic Lolita??
I'm sorry but that one is not Punk nor Gothic Lolita.................. You have a lot more to learn.

I just knew about that Punk can't smile when take photos... is it true??

"i personally dun think it's nice with normal type of lolitas socks"

"yeah, country loli never wear fishnet,but on her, she looks better with fishnet.sorry no offence......"

What did you say?

Hahahaha all your posts are funny!!

You personally think it's not nice, and you agree with me Country Lolita don't wear fishnets stockings, but the model looks better with the fishnets. Hmm...

And btw I don't really understand what are talking about here:

"ok,there's nothing wrong if ppl insist to wear fishnet eventhough it's not original lolita wear.cause it may shows the sexy side of the loli.but not in that red loli,cause it's more to country yes. u r rite....."

Anybody can explain to me?
I hope I can understand it one day. When my English is very very good.

"thanks for the passion on lolita, i really appreciated it."

I also thank you for all your hard work on posting those comments.
I also appreciate it, really.
Because you just gave me a new topic to blog!! XD

Again Lol

2007-10-30T20:51:00.000+08:00

I reseted my password again.

I think this time I won't have problem logging in to Blogger again. sigh

YES!!!

2007-09-12T17:11:00.000+08:00

Hahaha~
Reseted the password for my blogger account already lolz XD
Now I can blog here again!!

Wee~

My Birthday Celebration with CSP!!!

2007-06-11T16:00:00.000+08:00

Sunday, 10th June 2007
Mode Cafe@Asia City Complex

It's actually a gathering for artjam,
though it doesn't seem like an artjam anymore.
Since my birthday is near(which is on 14th June),
I told them to celebrate my birthday too.
(And I ask them to bring presents lol)
I got a lot of present from my lou gong(I Love you!),
and got some presents from the others too(Thanks everybody!)
And not to forget the cake!
I didn't expect there would be a cake!
Thanks Julian and Nicholas!
I'm so happy!! >w<

Anyways a lot of people ask for photos already...
I only have 1 group pic, some pics with Dizzy and a bunch of pics of myself! XD

I love my crown!! Bought it from Kanariya(Amber) for RM40.
And Dizzy's dress looks nice to me^^
But the material is.... >_<
She said she might wanna sell it...

And from here onwards are my personal photoshoot at Tanjung Aru and Tanjung Aru Plaza^^
Thanks lou gong for being my photographer.

Hahaha... Ok lah... That's it for my blog...
Actually there are some more photos but these are enough to put in my blog...

Usagi + Yogur Berry

2007-05-03T18:31:00.000+08:00

Another new Japanese restaurant,
is now open at Karamunsing Complex.

Usagi

The atmosphere is very nice...

The sushi train...
(No charges on the wasabi and pickled ginger... They just put them there...)

This is 'Teppan'... Grill it yourself I supposed..?

Whoa~! Monitors??

Yup.... But it's not for surfing the web....
It's for 'Surfing The Menu'..... ^^
I'm not sure how to use it because it hasn't start operating yet...
They said it probably will start this Sunday....

Anyway, I ordered chicken teriyaki set...
(I forgot the Japanese name for it.... haha...)

RM18.90

The chicken is really delicious! Sweet!
I love the taste, but I think it's too little...
The yellow thing in the blue cup is chawanmushi, steam egg.
It taste like normal steam egg, so no comment about that.
The miso soup is a bit too salty for me...

And RM1 for a cup of ocha(Tea)...

The prices above are not yet inclusive of 10% service tax. XD

Anyway, I love the place, like the food, but i don't like the price. XD
It's a bit too expensive for me.. heheh..
Really, most of the food are expensive...
The set I ordered is the cheapest already... (For the lunch/dinner set section lah)

I give it....
4 out of 5
:D

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Got Yogurt?
(Click it please....)

Hmmm....

This, is the place where you can get the slimming yogurt...

Situated at Warisan Square, Ground Floor,
just beside VedaBlu.
Behind Secret Recipe.

Inside Yogur Berry...

You can see the choices of toppings from here....
Sorry I forgot to take pictures of the choices of toppings.

Nice ceiling..... ^^

Outside they put some sample of the food and drinks they serve there...

Note: It's not real...

Looks yummy don't you think so??

So I went in to grab some yogurt....
It makes me drool looking at the 'fake' yogurt...

My mum ordered 'Roti Ikan'.

It looks like 'Taiyaki'. I think it's 'Taiyaki'...

Inside the 'Roti Ikan' is red bean filling.

It's cold and it doesn't taste nice.

I like the one at JFC(Japanese Food Court)...
But now there is no more JFC... It changed to Usagi...
But Usagi don't have 'Taiyaki'....
Sigh....

It's RM3 for 2 pieces.

....

And now....
For the moment of truth...

MY YOGURT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.......

What the..?!!!!

What is THAT??!!!

It is so not the same with the one they showed..
The sample.. The artificial one...

And it costs RM8.50++

I am so disappointed...
Very very disappointed...

Actually, I saw other people's yogurts are not so ugly...
'Ngam-ngam' mine they made it look so bad...

But still, the yogurt is very little.
The toppings too.
Oh, and here's the menu:

Click it to enlarge and take a look on the menu.

Yes, so, for the Frozen Yogurt,
you can choose single, double or triple scoop.
And then, different charges for the toppings.

Yeaahh.....

The one I chose is single scoop Frozen Yogurt with 3 toppings.
I chose chocolate syrup, mango and peach.
So that thing cost me RM8.50

And there's 5% government tax too.

By the way, I think a Korean guy open this shop...
Because there's this one guy spoke Korean to some customers...

Even the tissue got Korean words....

For Yogur Berry, I give...

2 out of 5

Sorry! Your yogurt actually taste nice but it's too expensive, not really worth it,
and YOU GAVE ME AN UGLY LOOKING YOGURT..................................

Kamikaze Girls

2007-04-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

I just bought a new manga today!
Erm.. well.. actually my bf want to buy it for me..
But I want to buy it myself.... RM8 only mah... haha~ XD

Anyway, I bought this:

Kamikaze Girls!
Based on the movie.. err yea, Kamikaze Girls. XD
Or the Japanese title, 'shimotsuma monogatari'.

I haven't watch the movie!
Still downloading it.... >_< style="font-style: italic;">Baby, The Stars Shine Bright lolita dress?

Finally!! .. + .. This is SADNESS!!!!

2007-04-29T19:13:00.000+08:00

I finally can update my blog here....
'cos I just registered google account..
last time no need, so I was a bit confused why can't I log in.... haih~

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Anyway,
today went for artjam at Asia City Complex's Mode Cafe and PIU at KK Plaza...
Went home and saw my mum was playing 'Dragon Quest & Final Fantasy Itadaki Street',
a monopoly-like game.
It's one of my favourite PS2 game....

The sad thing is....

I played this game since last year and unlocked a lot of secret characters and maps already....
But my mum didn't load the game but she overwrote the previous data!!!!
Now the data's gone!
Gone forever~!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T
It's 96% completed.....
Now.. Now it's...
It's gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wwwuuaaahh~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KKCC Outing

2007-03-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

Today is our 1st KKCC Outing.
We went to Yoshimi Japanese Restaurant for lunch.

I didn't take much photos... I want photos taken from Julian's camera.. XD

So here's the girls and guys:

After that we're supposed to take more photos at CP,
But suddenly my sis Rina fell ill...!!
Maybe it's her allergy, but it might be the raw fish she ate at Yoshimi just now too.
She nearly pass out, so we rush her to the nearest clinic at Api-api.
Thank God she's alright.

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But of course, I am unhappy and dissatisfied...
I wanted to take more photos, take photo sticker with the girls,
and I actually wanted to drink something at Starbucks..................

T.T

Sad, sad day...

This outing today, Game Over.
... To be continued...??

Happy CNY~~

2007-02-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year 2007~~
Went to Daniel & Julian's house!! (CSP Forumers :D)
Too bad I got to Dan's house kinda late...
So I didn't get ang pao..... T.T
After that went to Julian's house..
Aiya there no ang pao too.... T.T
*disappointed*
XD
I forgot to take photo at Julian's house...
This one is at Dan's house....

And this one is at my cousins' house.. (Father's side)

Not a Lonely Valentine's Day....

2007-02-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

:)

Yea and I thought I'm gonna be 'Lonely in Gorgeous' on V-day....
Mana tau nda pula! XD

Someone I like ask me out... :blush:
He pick me up from college... heehee~
And... I didn't expect he's gonna give me so many gifts...! @_@

If this is a manga/anime, my face went all red already... :blush:

Yea, it's a really simple sentence...
But I did the same thing.... hahaha~

Happy Valentine's Day everyone~!!! ^^

Lonely in Gorgeous

2007-02-09T17:06:00.000+08:00

Yea, that's what I think...
"Lonely in Gorgeous", sang by Tommy February6.

Valentines Day is coming!
Lonely Valentine though.
My friends at college, all of them are excited...
All of them have boyfriends/girlfriends except me!!!
>_<;;
But no matter, no big deal.
I'm Lonely in Gorgeous...
Being single has it's advantages & disadvantages...
But I do envy them~~~
I feel like.. I feel like I want a boyfriend actually....
And yet there's a side of me that don't want one......!

Aww~~ What should I do???

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Btw, I saw this pair of wings... I really like it and I'm thinking of buying it....
But I have to buy it secretly because my mum said 'useless, unimportant thing, waste money only'.... Lol

I am IRT

2007-01-22T18:19:00.000+08:00

Suddenly a lot of things are happening around me.

I feel like a lot of things had change,
and yet so much things hasn't change at all.

Have I change?

What I know is, I'm feeling more happy right now.
ClickStartPlay made me happy. ^_^
There's a lot of weirdos there! Muahahaha!!

Now that we have our KK Manga Project, is it a good news or bad news for me?

I love to draw, but right now I just started studying at college.

Will it affect my study?
I think it will.

I think 2007 is gonna be a busy year.

I don't mind being busy, as long as I'm happy! :D

Spring?

2007-01-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

Huhh...
I think Spring is coming...~~~
Is Spring coming???
I feel like Spring is coming~~
You know what I mean..??
I don't know... I'm not sure...
But now I'm feeling happy~
Happy~ Happy~ Happy~~~~
This year is gonna be a great year~
That's what I think anyway... Lol.........
But yeah~ Meeting new friends feel good~~
Sings: "I feel good nanananananana~~"

Xmas at Kundasang

2007-01-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

And so my mum & I went to Kundasang's new resort called Celyn Resort...
It's time for the annual Xmas Party with the cousins~~~
Year 2006's theme was Superheroes...

First.. Look at the view...
Beautiful... Cold & Misty~~~

I like that place. Despite of the millions of insects and the yellowish water... =/

Last year's xmas was fun...
Absolutely fun...!!!
Of course we have our main 3 contests...
Duet Karaoke, Group Dancing and Costume Competition...

I was very unsatisfied when me & my mum didn't win the Duet Karaoke,
our costume and actions were good....(My voice sucks though)
We didn't win because the judge bias... They let their friends win...

The next contests were judged by other people though, there are some people who stayed at the resort as well^^

I don't expect to win Group Dancing, we didn't prepare any dance moves actually....
But we did get consolation prize, because there's only a few contestants...

Superhero costume competition...!
The funniest competition...!!!

Guys:
Chaston as a random Ninja Shinobi, Lance as Conan(Not the detective lah), Louis as Batman, Gideon as Zorro, Boy as Superman, Bronson as Rambo and one last contestant...
Bexbert as Sasuke.
Lol. It's a last mintue entry(he's been forced) so his costume is not a costume at all...

I tell you, their actions are so so sooooo damn hilarious...!!!!! XD
Right now I'm just waiting for the video cd.... :3

Chaston was so great, he made a somersault and throws some shuriken in front of the judges. He even bring some powder and blew it making it look like smokes came out and he disappeared...
Lance & Louis joined this for the 1st time, so the didn't do much action.
Bronson's action was funny too... He brings toy gun, bows & arrows and a toy knife...
Those sounds he made was damn funny...!!! Boy put a few chairs in front of the judges, and he lies on the chair and posed as if he's flying in the sky.... XD
Bex.. Even though he didn't have his costume, his actions was great too...!
He also had a shuriken with him. He slide in front of the judges and made some Sasuke-like moves... he's so cool!! I love him very much!! So young so good-looking.. He really look a bit like Sasuke to me..!! ^^

Girls:
Ashley as Catwoman "A", my mum as Catwoman "B"(Lol), Bella as Card Captor Sakura(Last minute entry, and she uses Poker cards as the Clow Cards...), Kate as Chun-Li(VERY very last minute, she actually didn't participate, but since there's only a few contestants, she decided to join for fun...), there's even Audrey as Gaara!!! OMG!!! And me as Sailormoon....

Ashley did well, really Halle Berry look-a-like. My mum, well.... :-X
Bella just spin and throw the cards... Kate kicks and play with a sword(sword? Since when Chun-Li has a sword???) I got nervous when I sing my Sailormoon song, but I did the 'dengan kuasa bulan aku menghukum mu!!!' XD

Audrey.. She's so great... She speak Japanese!! Not sure if it's right or not though.... XD
"*somethinginjapanese* transalation, lindungan pasir!!!!"
Then she take a sarong flips it....
"*somethinginjapanese* transalation, something pasir!!!"
Then a 'kelefe' comes out and she put her hand out as if some kind of power and the 'kelefe' fell down as if something is preventing him to move....

Hahahaha...!

I can't wait for another Christmas Party with my cousins!!!
Aiya.. Have to wait for another year..... ;_;

KKCC Xmas Party~

2006-12-28T13:37:00.000+08:00

A ghost?!

I'm so happy! I had a lot of fun that night!
But I didn't get to take much photos... :(
And I didn't took photos with my sis and my own friends!!!!!
Wah so sad~!!!!! My 2 friends... (Btw, they're not really gay lah, I just make fun of them...)

Me and Dizzy-chan are long lost twins.... Really! (But Dizzy-chan is much more cuter..)
Sometimes we are thinking the same thing at the same time... Heheh...
(I need to cut my front hair...)

Julian, Cubex! You guys are great! Love hanging around with you!
But I don't talk about computers as much as you guys do! Nyahaha~

The girls:

Feel free to insert any words/sentences into the speech bubble...
I'm not as creative as Julian you see!

Me, Julian, Dizzy, and lastly...........??!!!!
OMG?! Why suddenly got a mexican wrestler eating pizza at the party??!!!

The night at Gaya Street

2006-12-22T13:53:00.000+08:00

While I was walking around that night,
I saw 2 chinese guys,
holding they're digital camera,
and looks like they were trying to take a photo of something.

They were looking at me,
and then turn their head away when I looked at them.

then I realized they were actually secretly took a picture of me... swt

That was really... Strange and funny. Lol.

Even the guy who sells cupcakes and donuts also asked me am I in a play or something... Haha.

It was fun...! I'm so happy...!!

Sweet Lolita goes out at Night

2006-12-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

Tonight I went to Gaya Street because there are some events there,
my friend suggests us to go there wearing our costume.
Only me go there wearing my Sweet Lolita costume though. ^^;

I took this photo at Milimewa. I want those teddy bears...!
Anyone willing to buy the teddy bear for me as a xmas gift??? XD

I didn't took any photos at Gaya Street. It was too full of people, and the place isn't very beautiful...
So my mum took us to Warisan Square to take some photos...

Strictness

2006-12-20T16:15:00.000+08:00

Okay, so being strict is for our own good.
But, c'mon lah..!
If you're too strict and ppl can't take it,
they'll hate you, leave and never come back....

Don't be too strict!
the club will 100% dies if we keep on scolding ppl like that!
I went to the cosplay club forum, and sometimes ppl does go OOT and etc.
And what did the mods do? Remind them, that's all...
They don't go scolding the forumers, okay?

Please lah, I don't like these kind of things...
I experienced this kind of situation before.... REALLY.

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When I was in PLKN, I was the ketua wirawati there...
I felt I was responsible to take care of the pelatih-pelatih,
and so I was strict, scolding them when they did the slightest mistake....

Because of that, I was hated by a lot of ppl...
Mind you, there were 300++ pelatih there...
Taking care all of them really gave me a lot of stress...
Now more than a hundred ppl hate me,
why? because I was TOO strict,
they said I was 'SKEMA',
means I was too strict on the rules.

I learned my lesson after more than 2 months,
I realized I shouldn't be too strict,
so I changed, I don't scold them too often,
I don't talk to them too seriously,
I changed my style of being the leader...
I talk to them, chat with them, laugh with them...
It was great, even though I was being scolded by the Jurulatih sometimes...
But I cared about my 300++ pelatih so much I don't really mind being scolded...
It's my duty, I'm responsible for it...

I had a lot of fun there...
That was really quite an experience...

My 2 lolita dresses

2006-12-19T15:56:00.000+08:00

OMG!! It's been more than a year since I created this blog...
I wonder what happened back then?
Perhaps I was lazy...

Neverming about that now,
I guess I'm gonna start blogging here again...

So, about my 2 lolita dresses...
The 2 dresses are the same design, only different colour.
But I bought the black one for RM120,
while the pink one is RM30....
(Different time, different shop)

When I surf around the web for shops and pictures of more lolita dresses,
I found my dress at a website Lucky Pinky ...
It's exactly the same!!!
And it costs 6,090 japanese yen....
It's unbelieveble...!

Testing my new blog...

2005-05-24T11:42:00.000+08:00

... Erm... Just testing...